On Wednesday, the kids and I head for the great, flat Midwest and a 3+ week stay at my mom’s house. I’m having (relatively minor) foot surgery on Friday, and we decided to have it done out there so that I’d have a few weeks of built-in childcare while I’m recovering and stumbling around on crutches.
I’m very glad for the help, and I think this was the right decision. But it also means that I have to let go a lot of the control I currently cherish. Yes, shockingly, I’m a control freak. This is not to say I’m under the delusion of having total control over my kids. Ha! Hahaha! You know I have toddlers, right? Haha! It’s more that, on a day-to-day basis, I’m the one who decides when we do what. I make meals happen, I pick activities, I enforce naptime. For the next few weeks, though I suspect I’ll be something of the mastermind behind the curtain, I have to unclench and let other people do it.
It’s hard for me, both because I like to have a certain degree of control, and also because I’m so used to my independence. I’m on my own with the kids all day, so I don’t have to discuss or consult with people before I do one thing or another. I just do it. I have my methods, I have my routines, I have the things that I do a certain way but have never had to verbalize how or why. It’s a big change, is all I’m saying, to have other people doing the primary hands-on caregiving.
But really, what am I so worried about? That they’ll skip a nap because someone let them fall asleep in the car when they shouldn’t have? Seriously, the kids will be fine. They’ll have my mom, her sisters, my cousins, and half the town lined up to babysit and play with them. They’ll have big dogs to chase, new parks to explore, and all kinds of mayhem to unleash upon my mom’s kitchen.
As of Friday afternoon, I think you’ll find me with my foot up on a pillow and computer on my lap. Possibly hopped up on painkillers, and not worrying if they’re going to make me feel loopy. Check in next Monday, I’ll post from mom’s house and we’ll see how that’s all working out.