Ask-the-MoMs: Moo Moo

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This post is about, you guessed it, breastfeeding. But more specifically, it’s about the cool art-form known as tandem nursing.

I wish this post could be a “how-to” deal, where any new mother could read it and follow the directions to a wonderful experience of nursing her babies. But I know better. For some moms, nursing will be a no brainer, as-nature-intended act. For others it will take some (okay, a lot) of patience, trial and error and creativity to make it work. And for even more, it will take a lot of heartache and tough decisions, maybe some to continue and some to stop. I fall somewhere in the middle. We had a rough go of it for the first three months and had I been a sane person, I likely would have called it quits. But somehow we kept going and things actually got really good. So good, in fact, that we’re at 13 months now and down to one glorious feeding a day. It’s from this perspective that I’d like to share some of my own tips and tricks. But better yet, I also have compiled some of the wonderful collective wisdom and experiences of my esteemed “How Do You Do It?” colleagues. So if your babies are still in your belly and your planning or considering breastfeeding, or if you’re a newer mom looking for advice, I hope this post can give you some inspiration and some downright practical ideas.

In the Beginning

Hopefully everyone reading this has or will go to full-term and their kiddos will spend no time in the NICU. But because the average twin pregnancy goes to about 35-36 weeks, you have to give this reality some consideration. I count myself lucky, having the boys at 36 weeks and them spending 3 short days in the NICU. I was able to start nursing them the morning they were born, amidst the tangle of heart rate and oxygen monitoring wires. Make sure and take advantage of the lactation consultants at the hospital. They were invaluable, and not just when we were in the hospital. I scheduled consults with them every single day we were there, and they continued to provide free consults for the first 3 months. Truly awesome.

The boys were a healthy 5lb 7oz and 4lb 13oz, however the doc wanted us to supplement with formula from the get-go. I was a die hard “only breast milk” kind of person, but when we found out the boys could get out of the NICU as soon as they started gaining weight, we quickly bagged our “perfect scenario” mentality and started supplementing. Because the boys were technically preemies and lacked the strong suck of a full-term baby, and also because we chose to rest at night and have the NICU nurses feed them, I started pumping after every nursing session, and through the night, with a hospital-grade double pump (Medela). I didn’t realize how important this pump would become! It took my milk 14 days (count ’em, 14!) to come in. I truly thought after day 7 that my body couldn’t produce milk. I came to learn after several lactation consults and tons of research that often times in takes moms with preemies longer to initially produce milk. So if you find yourself in this situation (and hopefully you won’t!), take heart, think positive, and keep on pumping with that hospital grade sucker (you can usually rent them on a monthly basis from your hospital). And if it doesn’t work out for whatever reason, at whatever point you are in the journey, try not to beat yourself up over it. You’ve got enough to worry about as a new twin mom.

We made our first attempt at tandem nursing in the NICU (as did some other HDYDI moms). It was hilarious. I was completely topless, there were nurses and lactation consultants all around, and I was sitting in a wheelchair of all places! I quickly learned that until the boys were better at latching and sucking, it would be a whole lot easier to work with them individually. But as I neared four weeks, I realized my mom was leaving, and I would only have help from my mother-in-law for two more weeks. I would soon be on my own, and I just couldn’t see how it would work if I didn’t tandem nurse. That being said, try and schedule as much in-home help as possible, for as long as possible! Spread out visits and make sure no one overlaps, so you make the most of the help you can get. At one month, we started tandem-trying every day. I had my E-Z Twin nursing pillow, my husband would get the boys situated, and then we’d both try and get them to latch. As soon as one would latch the other would come off, and Jordan would spend the next ten minutes running from side to side. It was a three-ringed circus, literally! I decided to go to our hospital lactation dept. for a tandem nursing consult. The woman recommended nipple shields, as she saw I had a fast let-down and the boys were having a tough time with it (i.e. popping off). As soon as we put the shields on (Medela, again), the boys latched, and nursed away, tandem-style, for the next 20 minutes straight. I started crying with joy right then and there. We used the shields until the boys decided they didn’t like them anymore at 4 months.

Technique

Tandem nursing was easy enough with another set of hands. But how do you do it when it’s just you and two starving babies?! First, you’ve got to find the right location. I don’t recommend buying a traditional nursing glider or rocker, just because they are not big enough or versatile enough to accommodate tandem feeding. Think about places that will be big enough to maneuver two babies without putting them in danger (bed, couch, big arm chair, etc.), and that will also be comfortable for you. Also, most of us used a twin nursing pillow of some kind, especially in the beginning. I used the E-Z Twin (and still do!), but the Twin Hugster and My Breast Friend Twin Pillow also got high marks. Most of us also used the double football hold. There are endless combinations you can try, and sure, I tried them all and always came back to the old faithful football. The most important thing is to find what works best for you and your babies, and trust that it will, at some point, change! The other key to tandem feeding, and this is actually a blessing, is that both babies must stay on the same schedule for it to work! Trust me, you’ll be thankful that your babies are eating and sleeping at the same time once you experience a “mixed” day. Most twins start out on a 3-hour regimen in the beginning. Oh, and you provide a full feeding for each baby with each boob, so no need to worry about switching them mid-way nursing session. However, keep track and make sure and switch sides with each feed so you don’t end up with lopsided boobs.

I chose our couch at first. I situated two boppies with babies snuggled in them, side by side, on the middle cushion. I sat next to them with the E-Z Twin around me, pillowstandem nursing propped underneath it to get the babies high enough to reach the goods, and pillows propped in back of me so I didn’t have to slouch over (this is key! you can end up with a nasty back ache if you don’t pay attention to posture). I was also as close to the padded arm of the couch which acted as an excellent barrier for a rolling baby. I picked up one baby, got him into position closest to the arm of the couch, then picked up the other dude and got him into position (I wiggled the boppy over to act as a barrier on this side). Then I got them each latched and hugged my arms around their bodies to hold them in place. We had reflux babies (god bless them) so I had to burp them frequently. Every five minutes or so, I would take one off, scoop him up over my shoulder, burp him, and getting him back into place, all the while the other guy was still nursing. Geez, it makes me exhausted just remembering all this stuff! Once the boys hit 3 months and had better head control, we moved to our roomy armchair. I’d put one guy in a boppy on the ottoman, snap the pillow around my waist, pick the other guy up over my shoulder, sit down in the chair, get him positioned, and then grab the other dude off the ottoman.

Cheryl, of Twinspiration fame, tandem fed exclusively. Her set up was always on the bed with a nursing pillow and boppies on either side as “on deck circles.” She’d grab one babe and get latched and situated, then reach over and get her other baby settled. Her girl had reflux too, so she’s put Darren back in the boppy (with pacifier – good tip!) with head elevated, burp Sarah, and then switch. Cynthia tandem nursed on her couch or bed with a nursing pillow and boppies on either side. She’d set down one boy on a boppy and hold the other while she sat down. Once the first boy was in position, she’d pick up the second. When she was done, she’d often just stand up with one boy on each shoulder and gently lay them down (simultaneously) in their crib or pack-n-play. I have also read on other MoM blogs of all varieties of pillow and couch cushion propping, babies nursing one on top of the other, etc. The most important thing is to experiment with what works best for you and your babies.

tandem sleepingOne thing’s for sure, tandem nursing gives you a bird’s eye view of some amazing moments. The boys would explore each other’s faces, hold hands, reach up for my face, rest their hands on my chest, and often times peacefully fall asleep. When you all start to get in the groove of things, it’s a beautiful place to find yourself!

All Grown Up

When my boys were about 4-5 months old, nursing became a real pleasure. I could pick them both up at the same time, maneuver the pillow into place, plop them down and let them go to town. They would stop mid-way, crack each other up, crack me up, eat some more, and then I could hoist them both up onto my shoulder and stand up and go on our merry way. And then around six months life got way too interesting for them, and nursing became an exercise in distraction management, along with climbing and standing practice using me as their jungle gym. They were efficient eaters, so the actual nursing only took about 10 minutes, a far cry from the hour-long sessions when they were younger. At nine months, Abel became obsessed with eyes and I quickly found myself reffing eyeball poking matches. But I also found us playing a lot on the pillow after nursing, with the boys each taking one of my hands and flipping it over, and over, and laughing hysterically at the realization that it had two sides. Again, some really amazing, intimate moments. By eleven months the boys had naturally weaned themselves to three feedings and soon after their first birthday they were on the move and couldn’t stop for a second to nurse during the day. Weaning happened just like that. We’re now still nursing once a day, first thing in the morning when they wake up, for a max of five minutes. I give it another week.

Combo Plate

I was the paranoid type for the boys’ first four months and always wondered if they were getting enough nutrition. They weren’t great nurses in the beginning, so we kept up with our supplementing routine, but by 3 weeks I was pumping enough that we switched them off formula and they exclusively got breast milk supplements. I’d get the mini-bottles with an once or two of milk prepped and ready to go next to the couch or armchair, and then after they nursed I’d just grab those bottles and feed them in the same position. Along with other HDYDI moms, we also tandem bottle fed them in boppies on either side of us, as well as in their bouncy seats. I occasionally found myself in a situation where I had to bottle feed one and breastfeed the other (don’t ask), and I would treat this the same way as tandem nursing. Same position, but I held a bottle for one while the other nursed. Krissy nursed her baby girl (and still does!), while has pumped and bottle fed her lil’ guy after his nursing strike at four months. She does it the traditional style of feeding one after the other. Just be assured that whatever scenario of breastfeeding/bottlefeeding you might find yourself in, you WILL find some incredibly resourceful and creative way to accomplish the goal at hand. You’re a twin mom, after all!

Pumping, Pumping, Pumping

I’m going to defer to CraftyLissa’s recent post on pumping, as it’s chock full of fantastic advice. I was a serial pumper and was hooked up to that darn machine ten times a day until the babies hit 6 weeks. I don’t recommend it, but if you have to do it, you have to do it. I then “weaned” myself to pumping only in the evenings, usually three times (twice before bed and once in the middle of the night). It was just too hard for me to pump during the day while I was by myself with the boys. Just remember that you are producing A LOT of milk to feed two babies, so use your pump wisely to “relieve” yourself when it’s necessary, especially when you are weaning or reducing their number of feedings, etc. I ended up with plugged ducts on several occasions, and mastitis once, on account of engorgement. Trust me, you’ve got enough on your plate and don’t want to add this to it. I highly recommend reading Cheryl’s experience with mastitis in Twinspiration. I was so glad I did, because when I noticed the warning signs (hard lumps in boobs, red blotches, fever, feeling like utter crap), I high-tailed it to the doctor and got antibiotics to clear it up right away. And if you’re not pumping to get as much milk out while all this is going on, lord help you.

As much as pumping stinks, you can make the most of it by strapping on the porno tube top (aka hands-free pumping bra) and taking some time for yourself to eat, meditate (the droning sound of the motor is a great mantra), and of course, read the recent posts of How Do You Do It! Be careful though about catching a snooze while you pump. This happened to me one time as I pumped before bed and I woke up an hour later with overflowing catch bottles and sore-as-heck nipples.

Tandem in Public?

If you are like me, you will quickly relinquish any and all modesty once you become a tandem breastfeeder. I nursed the guys in front of my mom and dad, my in-laws, my brother and sister, my best friend and her boyfriend (yikes! but he honestly was the BEST mother’s helper!), countless friends and their children, nannies and babysitters, neighbors. Gosh…I’m just now realizing how many people have seen my boobs! Despite this, I never had the gumption to tandem nurse in public, meaning in the Babies-R-Us lobby or on a park bench. We get enough crazy attention just being out and about, I can’t imagine what kind of stares and comments we would have received if we tandem nursed. But I certainly did not hesitate to nurse the boys in public one at a time. Typically this would be in the women’s lounge at Nordstrom, one of the comfiest spots I found. I’d just keep one guy occupied with a toy while in the stroller or car carrier while I nursed the other. It worked great. If you’ve got the comfort and the technique to tandem it in public, I say GO FOR IT! Totally awesome.

Where to get Help

Obviously, this topic is HUGE! I feel like I just scratched the surface and didn’t even address some of the crazy challenges we encountered over the past 13 months. So here are some excellent places to go for more information. Definitely get a copy of Mothering Multiples by the La Leche League. It’s a great resource to read before your babies arrive and an even better guide once you’re making a go at it. I can’t tell you how many times I read certain chapters of that book. It’s especially useful if you have preemie multiples and when things just aren’t going the way you expected. Twinspiration, by our very own Cheryl, is another great book. It’s funny and entertaining but most of all, it’s a real life account. My husband even read it and loved it. I can’t emphasize enough how important it is to use the lactation consultants at the hospital. They’re free and they are readily available. And most hospitals offer breastfeeding classes you can take advantage of. Also, several HDYDI moms recommend using a lactation consultant for a home visit to help with your set up, technique and measure how much the babies are consuming. If you’re in a bigger city, many local maternity stores have lactation consultants, classes and almost always have a scale where you can drop-in and check your babies weight. I rented a scale from my local store so I could periodically check how much the boys were getting at different feeds. It only cost about $30/week. And then, of course, you have amazing resources with your local La Leche League and MoM’s group. Join these groups, get on their listserves, go to meetings and use these incredible women for their knowledge, experience and support.

Oh, I almost forgot one of the best sources of all – the Internet! Here’s just a few blog posts on tandem feeding (Boobie Monologues, View from Above). And ladies, don’t hesitate to ask questions and add your experiences, techniques, heartbreaks and triumphs of tandem nursing to our comments section.

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Pumping For Advice

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Pumping while working full-time is not for the faint at heart. It’s not even something I ever really thought I would do – but then so much of what happened when the boys came early at 33 weeks wasn’t something I ever thought I would do. Our guys never really learned to latch on well enough for me to breastfeed them easily. I tried to get the hang of it while they were in the NICU for four weeks but didn’t have much success. And I was just so tired.

I got the pumping thing down while they were still in the hospital, so when we got home, I went to pumping exclusively and just fed them with bottles. We were all a lot happier. I tried to find some guidance from my baby books on how to do this whole pumping thing but resources were scarce. No one in the breastfeeding support from our hospital really shared this option with me, as I think it’s their goal to get you successfully breastfeeding. I think that is a wonderful goal, but with two babies, it was more than I could handle.

I ended up pumping for a total of 11 months. The boys were three months before I had to supplement with formula, which I ended up mixing half and half with the breast milk. The part that killed me the most was on that day when I made my first half and half bottles, my heart was so sad that I couldn’t provide all the food my guys needed – but they could have cared less! They scarfed down the formula/breastmilk bottles just like everything else. Humph. Oh well.

I went back to work when they were three months old. By then I had a solid schedule. I pumped when we woke up in the morning for 20 minutes, while they had their first bottle. Then I pump in 4-5 hour increments until bedtime. While I pumped, I gave the boys their bottles so that I could make good use of our time (God gave me twins for a reason – I love to multi-task). I know, I know, you’re not supposed to “prop” up a bottle. But I believe that guidance was written by someone who never had multiples – and I was always right there with them. We used bottle pillows and it worked wonderfully for us.

I was nervous about the whole pumping-at-work thing – what would people think? Then I remembered I worked practically with all men and, really, what were they going to say? Nothing! I looked at it as my little break from the cube. In fact (don’t tell anyone!), after I stopped pumping, I still brought my pump with me to work for two months and kept the same schedule to take naps instead of pumping.

My office has great facilities for nursing moms. They offer lactation rooms with a recliner, sink, fridge, table and plug-ins, and you just reserve the room for a private meeting on your schedule. If your workplace doesn’t have quite such a set-up, there are resources online you can tap into to help make a case for setting up something like it. I’ve heard stories about moms who pump in the restroom or spare meeting rooms or even in their cars. You can make it work but it’s a little easier when your employer is supportive.

Some essential items for pumping while working:

1. A good, heavy-duty breast pump. Don’t mess around here. I used the Medela Pump-in-Style, and it was my best friend and constant companion. It had all the compartments you need to store your equipment, plus a cooler and ice-freezey-thing. I can’t remember if it came with an AC adapter or not, but that is essential. A battery pack is a nice back up as well – the power does go out here in the middle of Missouri during bad weather. And I won’t go into details on the few times I tried pumping in the car while driving home from work (yes, I did try it – I don’t recommend it).

 2. A hands-free pumping/nursing bra thing. I’m not sure how I would have lived without this. With one of these, pumping at work becomes kind of little vacation away from your annoying co-workers. You can just relax while your pump does all the work. Of course, you do feel a lot like a cow, but reading a book can take your mind off of that.

3. A timer. A standard kitchen timer is fine. You just need to be sure you’re being consistent about the time you’re putting in. That’s the key to maximizing your milk production. (Feeling like a cow yet?)

4. Storage containers. I used hard plastic storage bottles to collect and transport my milk, then transfered it to freezer bags when I got home. Eventually my supply was low enough and they were eating enough table food (around 6 months) that I just used the hard plastic storage bottles to keep the milk in the fridge, as we would use it all up by the next day.

Keep the same pumping schedule at work that you established at home. Mine was 7am, 11am, 3pm and 8pm. No, I never really got up to pump at night after I came home hospital – but man, that first pump in the morning was rough because of it. On the other hand, it felt like I had produced a lot!

Patience is essential. I stuck with it for so long because I felt like it was the one thing I could really do to help my guys. I had the usual mommy guilt piling up – my babies were born early, my body failed them, I can’t even nurse them, I’m a horrible mother. So seeing those frozen bags of milk lined up were like my little accomplishments. I was proud. My pumping schedule eventually weaned off until I was down to pumping just once a day. Then I just stopped. It was the end of an era.

No matter how long you end up pumping, you should be proud. Pumping is hard, dammit. It feels and looks really weird, but oh well. Now you know how all those cows feel.

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The First Months: Actually Leaving the House

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After a particularly successful outing with my nine month olds, I was reviewing the trip, analyzing it to figure out exactly why it went so well. And although I doubt I could duplicate the success of the day, I have noticed a few themes that occur more often than not on our good days. As such, I would like to pass along a few tidbits I have learned over the last few months…most of which I learned the the hard way!

When I brought home my two little screaming bundles of joy from the hospital, I was so relieved to be freed from the confines of my pregnant belly, that I couldn’t wait to get out and about without the careful chaperoning of my husband. However, as a new MoM, I wasn’t going anywhere with out said shrieking bundles. The first few weeks I had lots of family help, and was chauffeured as I wasn’t able to drive post c-section. But bright and early on a Monday morning, 3 weeks after Faith and Jonathan were born, I was on my own. So what did I do on my first day flying solo? Well, I went to the mall.

I desperately needed to be around people, and simply could not tolerate being in the house another day without going a little stir crazy. I can’t remember much about that trip, but I do remember the drive home, because both babies were WAILING the whole time. My hormonal nerves were frayed, and I begged each red light to change. Obviously, I had pushed the envelope, and was now paying for it. I arrived home with two babies who were certain they were starving, and were going to pass out if they were not fed right now! After feeding them, they quieted, and my stress level lessened. I realized that I should have fed the babies prior to loading them into the car and heading home…and that is tip #1. Always plan your outings around your feedings.

Babies with full tummies travel and tolerate changes much better than hungry babies. Expect your newborns to need to be fed while you are out and about, and prepare for it. If your babies are drinking their milk in bottles, they can be fed two at a time while in their carseats. If you will need a private place to breastfeed, consider nursing in your vehicle, or in a handicapped changing room. The handicapped rooms have enough room for maneuvering a double or triple stroller, and are great for quick diaper changes, far removed from the prying eyes of all those interested in your “double trouble” duo.

My second tip would be to #2. Quit while you are ahead. And by this I mean, reconsider your time-line. Before I was a mom, I could easily go from one store/activity to the next, with barely a bathroom break in between. But my little ones do not have the ability to go from location to location without a break. Lets face it, no matter how scheduled we try to be, there is nothing like two or more infants to throw a wrench in your perfectly choreographed day. If you overbook your day, or your expectations are too high, you might find yourself frustrated, and itching to check just one more thing off of your to-do list. I vividly recall feeling so annoyed that my babies would barely tolerate one (1.7 mile) trip around the park….didn’t they know that Mama does two laps? I definitely had to change my thinking.

Today, we left our outing with enough time to get home for naps, and before the kids melted down. In this way, I ended the trip feeling quite pleased with our day, rather than put out that I couldn’t window shop/walk/sip my coffee longer.

Lastly, I want to talk about # 3. Technique. The idea of loading and unloading my kiddos from the house to the car and getting them into different restaurants/stores/doctor’sappointments was overwhelming for me. Before I gave birth, I couldn’t imagine how to do it. My babies were in infant car seats from 0-6 months. To get us out the door, I would:

  1. Load babies into car seats, and place by front door.
  2. Run purse, water bottle and diaperbag out to car, and start it with A/C or heat on, depending on the weather.
  3. Carry the babies to the car and snap them in. When they got older and heavier, I would leave one on the front porch, and snap the sibling into the carseat base.
  4. Repeat.

From six months on, we have been using convertible car seats. The trick that I employ is placing a pac-n-play by the front door as a “staging area.” I will take one child out to the car and come back for their sibling, who was contained in a safe place. This has become especially useful as the babies have recently started to crawl. Using the pac-n-play provides me with peace of mind as I shovel the walkway, or scrape ice from our windshield.

I also like to keep a bjorn or similar carrying device tucked into the basket of my stroller. This has come in very handy during meltdowns, and I can comfort one by carrying them while having my hands free to push the other baby in the stroller. It is hard on the back, but then again, nearly everything about motherhood hurts my back!

Also, whenever possible, I park near handicap entrances, and utilize the ramp, automatic doors and lower curbs. And a good trick for grocery shopping or doing your Target run…place one infant carrier in the front of the cart, and carry the other in a bjorn or sling. This leaves your cart free for your purchases.

Leaving the house with two babies is absolutely possible, and totally necessary for the mental health of MoM. Remember, you are strong and capable! The way I figure it, the very worst thing that could happen is both babies could cry/scream/poop/pee/vomit and you could turn into a hormonal pile of mush. Face it, that could just as easily happen at home! But at least this way, you can make good use of the Starbucks drive-thru!

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Full moon philosophies

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If you look up in the sky tonight around nine, you’ll be lucky to witness a total lunar eclipse. Tonight also happens to be a full moon, which you’ll get to see in all its glory about an hour later. I’m a pretty grounded girl, but I never underestimate the power of our solar/lunar cycles. It never ceases to amaze me that on days where everything is out of whack, where our boys seem to be utterly possessed, I come to realize that it’s a full moon. It gives me a strange comfort to believe that they’ll snap out of it by tomorrow, and in most cases – whether it’s the moon’s doing or not – they do.

I have a good friend who gave me a pearl of wisdom before I gave birth to the boys. In a nutshell, she said that there will be days, weeks, maybe months that will seem impossible and never-ending. But each phase is just that – a phase – that will end and initiate something new and different. So when you are in the midst of an utter craptastic place with your babies and you think you just can’t take another day…take heart. It will end. Maybe not tomorrow, but one day soon. Of course like all good advice, I forgot it immediately upon hearing it.

We had some trouble when it came to my grand plan of nursing the boys. I remember the boys being three months old and I thought our woes would last a lifetime. Pile reflux/spitting/misery on top of screaming on top of mastitis on top of having to nurse them while bouncing on a stability ball. Every new mom I knew was relishing the relief that the three month milestone brought them, while I was in the midst of my very own personal hell. And then somehow I remembered that little nugget of advice and I chose to just give it a few more days – okay a few more weeks – before throwing in the towel. Low and behold, four months was our magic number. It was also the time we decided to sleep train the boys. Whatever caused it, we were suddenly in a much different and better place.

Since then I have held this wisdom a little closer and it has never let me down. I call it, “it changes as fast as it changes.” A catch-phrase that is much easier for my suboptimal postpartum brain to remember. And remember.

So tonight I’m going to make a special point of going out onto our patio to witness this dual lunar event. I may even bring a glass of wine and sit on our weathered patio chairs for a while. You know, really take it in. I want it to remind me that moments are fleeting, that things really do change as fast as they change. And how beautiful it is to just soak in the moment, even when you feel you can’t take another second of it.

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